I Never Realized They’d Grow Up This Fast

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I’m grateful to share a guest post by Krista O’Reilly-Davi-Digui, creator of A Life In Progress. Krista was kind enough to share our story on her blog, and I’m excited to reciprocate. As you know, I’m passionate about mothering. Choosing to be fully present and intentional with our time as parents is not easy, but it is oh-so-important because (as Krista will soon point out) the time we have with our children under our roof is limited. 

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I never realized they’d grow up this fast.

21 years ago, I made the decision to stay home and raise my first born. I remember sitting cross-legged on the ground one day, his precious brown body folded up in my arms, and I realized I would walk away from all the years I’d invested in my Education degree so that I could be the one to teach him to read. I’ve never regretted my decision.

Our first little home was 830 square feet, 80 years old, and so imperfect. The moment I walked in, two little people in tow by this time, I knew it was ours. Together we painted the walls of each room a different bright color and used the space as creatively as we could. I sewed up little curtains and made it our own. We had a small home but a big yard and spent a lot of time out there or on nature walks and at the park.

For a time, I ran a day-home for other children as I parented and homeschooled; a necessity for a season as we began paying off my hefty student loans. It wasn’t easy and often when 5 p.m. came around all I wanted to do was quit parenting, lay on the rug and watch Oprah. But I was determined and grateful for my simple but beautiful life.

We never had fancy things but it didn’t matter. Second-hand suited us fine. Homemade play dough and a library card carried us far and as my kids grew we always found a way to support them in their primary interests. We’d take little jobs here and there and my husband made some money reffing sports to provide extras like piano lessons and quality art supplies.

When baby number 3 joined the nest we decided it was time to move. I felt frustrated that my kids could never leave out any Legos, and we had no room for a proper crib. We sold our little house at almost double what we bought it for and paid off the rest of the student loans. Even though our new home had a bigger (yet practical) mortgage, our budget balance remained the same.

We’ve been here 12 years already and the years have flown by. Our years of cuddling on the couch morphed into driving lessons and then driving kids to college.

I painted recently but there is a piece of wall in our kitchen that remains untouched. It was here that we measured kids as they grew, inch by inch, as child became teen and then man. I’m so grateful for all the family meals and game nights we shared while we had time. I am thankful that we prioritized relationship over busyness.

I am thankful that we prioritized relationship over busyness.

Because, of course, I didn’t realize they’d grow up so fast.

You hear it all the time but ignore it because when you’re in the thick of sleepless nights or cranky toddlers the days and years stretch out before you without end.

When you’re struggling to pay for new basketball shoes and get food on the table, chauffeuring teens and frustrated by mess, you long for a break and a quieter home.

But one day you’re helping your daughter find dry mittens to cover chubby cold hands and the next, it seems, you’re helping her apply for scholarships and get started on her own life plan.

They grow up so fast.

This is a season of emptying bookshelves, giving away games and decluttering craft supplies. A season of letting go.

I reminisce about the days that we read classics aloud and my son dubstepped in the kitchen. I miss hearing my older daughter play Bach or some modern jazzy tune as I prepared supper one room away. Only a few months ago I grumbled as I tripped over her pile of shoes and barked at her to clean her mess off the kitchen table.

And some days I feel it like a heavy weight on my chest, preventing me from catching my breath.

They grow up so incredibly fast.

In this season, as I return to work part-time and adjust to a quieter home, my primary focus remains building my family and loving these people I am privileged to share life with. This means driving to the city to bring food or take them out to eat and chat. It means being available when they need me and offering space when they don’t.

And even though we have one daughter left at home, she is no longer really a child. I am hyper-aware of the passing of time and just how fast they grow. This motivates me to show up each day with joyful curiosity. To receive every day open-armed and to appreciate each step of the way.

We are caught in the transition of time between busy home and empty nest, and daily we must make the choice to be fully present for it all. I don’t want to waste a crumb.

My husband and I so clearly remember our own university days yet here we are with an emptying house and plans to downsize again. Sell our home, find an apartment somewhere with a balcony and natural light and live mortgage free. Frugally. With space for grandbabies to come and play if that gift comes our way.

We so clearly remember meeting and falling in love. Welcoming each sweet child into our family and wondering at who they’d become. It has all been better and harder than we ever could have planned.

I never realized they’d grow up this fast.

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Krista O’Reilly-Davi-Digui is a stubborn questioner, storyteller & Joyful Living Educator.

Her mission is to help women live unshackled lives of purpose, health & JOY. Discover how you can work with her and read more honest & encouraging stories at alifeinprogress.ca or on her Facebook page.

 

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13 Comments
  • Priscilla
    November 9, 2017

    What a lovely story. Your first house sounds perfect in its imperfectness. So many parents say the infant and toddler years fly by, but for me it was years 5-9, like a FLASH, happy times.:-)

    • krista O'Reilly-Davi-Digui
      November 9, 2017

      It was a sweet house with lots of issues but full of love too. I miss little hands and homemade playdough but I also love the teenage years. It is so amazing to get to know our kids in a new way:)

  • Hannah
    November 9, 2017

    This post made me cry, I think I needed to read this today! My four are still very young and although I am really focused on living in the present, I find it hard finding the balance of everything. Your story is filled with love has helped me find perspective in my current exhausted state, I hope that I have similar relationships with my children as you do with yours, when mine are older xx

    • krista O'Reilly-Davi-Digui
      November 9, 2017

      Thanks, Hannah. Writing about this stage of life helps me process it and my ultimate desire is to encourage other mamas to settle in and enjoy the stage they’re in:)

  • Rebecca
    November 9, 2017

    Yes, beautiful post!
    We find ourselves in the thick of it. Two littles – ages 2 and 4. Five homeschooling – ages 8, 10, 12, 15, 16. And two in college – ages 20 and 21.
    I feel like I blinked and the olders are grown, moving on with their plans, needing and not needing me. And we are oh so proud of them – who they have become and are becoming – but I miss them. It is a challenging time!
    Yet I’m so glad I have littles still at home to enjoy and cuddle with and read with and get after about their messes.
    Thank you for your thoughts on this whole process!

    • Krista O'Reilly-Davi-Digui
      November 9, 2017

      You are welcome – I grew up in a house with 12 kids (just thought I’d share as you have a bigger family) although we never all lived at home at the same time due to age gaps. What a messy, full, life:)

  • Dawn
    November 9, 2017

    This is BEAUTIFUL and such wonderful encouragement…our four kids are still little…3-8, so it’s hard at times to imagine that we’ll soon be in your shoes!

    • Krista O'Reilly-Davi-Digui
      November 9, 2017

      Thank you and I know – I feel like I genuinely blinked and they grew up. Honestly, after the birth of my third child, I think I was in a haze for the first six years:) I love who they are and delight in each of my three kids. And I also miss them (the big kids).

  • Krista O'Reilly-Davi-Digui
    November 9, 2017

    Evelyn, thank you for welcoming me here. xo

    • Evelyn
      November 10, 2017

      So glad to have you, Krista!! Thanks for getting on the comments too> 😀

  • Joy
    November 13, 2017

    What a poignant and bitter sweet post this is. I felt like this in September when my twin granddaughters went happily off to University miles away from home……..how did they get to be so grown and nearly nineteen? My eldest daughter remarked recently that she is nearing fifty……never!!! Her two siblings are not far behind.
    That means I am nearly seventy…..how did I grow up so fast!
    Happy memories, thank you for reminding me

    • Evelyn
      November 14, 2017

      Joy, thank you for sharing your sweet perspective. I suppose the wonder at time passing never slows or changes! Thanks for commenting.

  • Kelly
    November 16, 2017

    Good read! Kelly

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